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The Pathetic 2007 Meme
For 2007 in review,
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spookshow1313.
Note: you know, I had such high hopes for this year.. and reading my responses... Ugh... it's been nothing but pathetic bitterness and hurt. I've spent the last three months of the year trying to move away from that though...but really, I just haven't had enough time yet to get where I want to be, which is away from that attitude.
1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?
I learned how to do entire LJ layouts using only CSS instead of the very limited tools they give you with some of the styles. This opened up a whole realm of possibilties in layered backgrounds and fun stuff like that.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I agree with spookshow1313. I don't make them.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Gods I hope not. Nobody I know can afford to be having babies, and people who can't afford babies shouldn't be having them.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
Not that I can think of, so I guess not.
5. What countries did you visit?
Does the City of E'ville count as a country? (note, that the City of E'ville's official goverment website is a broken link)
6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
Hello? A car that isn't on it's last possible leg?
7. What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Again, I'd have to agree with spookshow1313. "Benazir Bhutto's assassination (Dec. 27) because it's a trigger for heinous events to come. Just watch."
Pakistan has only ever pretended to be our ally to keep themselves out of scrutiny. Now just watch what happens.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I had no acheivements. My settlement concluded... that's not an achievement at all. In fact it settled nothing of the debt that the accident racked up.. Oh... except that it settled my ability to ever try to get any more medical treatment for my still painful injuries, or ever try to get any of the actual money that the accident cost me. That's settled. I can't. Ever.
9. What was your biggest failure?
I failed to find better work. Failed to settle my case against the government to any sort of even remotely satisfying or even FAIR way... I Failed to fire a lawyer who it is now clear was not working towards my best interest. I wonder if I can now demand a transcript of every communication he made with the government as he 'argued in my behalf'.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
I dropped a chair on my foot at work and sprained it pretty bad in October. Hied myself straight to the chiro, and had to be half carried into the adjusting room it was so painful. By 10 that night, after adjustments and therapy, I could walk again without help. We thought it was broken when I went in there. This is why I tell you people over and over and over.. when you hurt yourself get thee to a good chiropractor, and let him fix the INJURY instead of just treating the symptoms the injury causes.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
Hmm... it might have been Nissan Thom. He may be rough, but he has been getting me where I need to go for quite a while now. Most of my settlement money went to pay off debts that frankly, I couldn't afford to pay off, and really needed that money myself.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Somebody had behavior? GOOD behavior? No seriously... My daughter has grown into a wonderful and thoughtful young woman. She plugged away at school even though most of the subjects she couldn't have cared less about, and Graduated a year early as Junior, got her diploma, and managed to carry a 3.23 GPA despite the odds. Good Going! I'm so proud. I wish I'd had the money to throw a huge bash to celebrate.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Um..frankly, most of my "friends". I asked numerous times for someone to help me with my gutters this summer. My neighbor ended up having his son come over and work on them. That Arborvitae is still standing appallingly ugly and close to my house destroying the property value of a home I'm trying to sell. My basement window is still broken, and guess what, it's too cold now to use the glaze. I also spent a lot of time this year being screwed over by other people. Had a lot of trash talked about me and to me, but I'm not allowed to say anyhing about it myself... so yah... whatever. We'll see what happens next time I get called for any help on anything. Emergency house cleaning? Forget it. Pet sitting? NO! Borrow my car? HELL NO! (evilpenguini is excluded from that. She traded cars with me so I could actually TAKE my vacation.) Help you fix your brakes? nope... not doing it. I'm not doing another cotton picking thing for anyone around here any more. Oh yah.. don't forget the garbage disposal... it's still there, still broken and still making that side of the sink unusable, and the faucet getting drippy again... now the hot tap. I'll guess I'll have to fix that myself too. Also.. my brother who sadly still feels it is appropriate to hold a grudge against his sister for something I don't even remember that allegedly happened when I was 18 or 19 years old. I think I will start holding a grudge against him for telling his social studies teacher that I tore up his homework two years before I had her as my social studies teacher. Yah... That seems like an adult thing to do.
Note: 2007 has generally sucked, however, since cutting out most of the negative influences (in people) out of my life late in the year, things have already begun to improve. Just not enough time has passed to bring me past the overall bitterness of the year.
14. Where did most of your money go?
Money? Let's see... stupid voters voted for a huge increase in the minimum wage all at once, so I went from working at above minimum wage, to working at minimum wage after many years of being above. I now have no hope of ever getting a raise other than if minimum wage is increased. And the cost of living has skyrocketed (I don't give a rats ASS what the consumer price index says, has anyone seen the price of eggs?) So... I'm not even sure what money is at this point.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Nothing exciting happened this year. Only upsetting things. Wow, this is getting depressing.
16. What song will always remind you of 2007?
There is no song that will remind me of 2007... I don't even note that any good songs came out this year really.... nothing really memorable.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? I'm not happier.
ii. thinner or fatter? I don't remember. I think I'm about the same. Seems like I was bitching about the same 20 stress enforced pounds then too.
iii. richer or poorer? much much poorer. Making less money, paying more in bills, and screwed by more people this year than ever before.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Writing really... I mean I know I did Nano, and that was a big deal that I could actually Win a Nano with my dad sick and all.. but I wish I had been more consistent with it, could have even concentrated on it consistently.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Being screwed by people I thought I could trust. Yes.
20. How will you be spending New Year's Eve?
Oh nononono... I am NOT going out. NOT. Last year I spent in the company of people who were embarrassingly unable to hold their liquor... Honey, passed out on the floor in a ball gown with no underwear and your legs spread so everyone can see by 10 pm is NOT attractive, and I don't EVER want to see that again. EVER. If you're planning on drinking, then EAT something first, and don't start at noon if you plan to watch the ball drop with the real adults. Next year, I am SO saving my money so I can buy tickets for a real formal new years eave party somewhere nice.
21. Did you fall in love in 2007?
Nooo nonononono! Do Not WANT!
22. How many one-night stands?
Zero. Do Not WANT!
23. What was your favorite TV program?
I does not watch TV. I can't remember the last time I actually watched a TV show.
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I don't hate people. I dislike their behaviors, but I don't hate people.
25. What was the best book you read?
Did I read a good book this year? Probably Christopher Paolini's Eldest. Did I read that this year? I also read Fullmetal Alchemist Land of Sand and I liked it too though the translation was very very VERY juvenile. I think it was dumbed down for the English speaking audience too... so Edward was really way out of character. What I have read LOTS of is Fanfiction. And wrote some too.
26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Hrm... I make musical discoveries all the time... I think I might have discovered Angela Aki this year... and I love her voice. Um... I discovered that I really want Lisa Gerrard's The Mirror Pool. I already knew I liked Lisa Gerrard's work. My ANTI discovery was iTunes.... HATE IT! I got me a little iPod Shuffle by getting people to sign up for Wowio early in the spring/summer time. It was great... I love my Shuffle. I do NOT like iTunes and wish there was another way to load my shuffle, becuase this software is a pain in the ass. I despise proprietary software with a passion. So Yah... Anti.
27. What did you want and get?
I wanted that iPod Shuffle. hahaha... Now I'm seriously thinking of replacing it with a Coby like I got my daughter rather than deal with iTunes screwing up my musical organization.
28. What did you want and not get?
A decent settlement for the government destroying my life and health for two years by having a careless driver out in the rain... one that would at least have replaced my car with one of equal ability and value. But no...
29. What was your favorite film of this year?
Oh... I totally didn't watch any movies this year. Really... I'm not even sure what came out. Isn't that awful? I couldn't afford to even rent movies most of the year much less see anything in the theater. I hate that too. And I'm trying to get a job at a video store. hee...
30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 41, and my birthday was largely unmarked, unremarked and forgotten. Many people who remembered at the last minute forgot that I actually turned 40 LAST year, when my big birthday party I was promised was never announced, so at the last minute I planned my own, and told anyone who gave a rats as to meet me at Akashi becuase I was by god having sushi at a good Japanese sushi house for my birthday no matter what. hahahaha. So I didn't really plan anything this year. But unlike last year, it wasn't important to me.
31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
I agree with spookshow1313: More sushi.
32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?
Hrm... Well ok... It really depends on the weather? and what I'm doing. Summer means I spend a LOT of time in bike shorts and sports bras and really nothing else. or Shorts and a tank top. Fall and winter? I have fallen in love with the whole concept of the mini skirt and tights with a big sweater thing.. Oh and knee high boots. Yes. I'm also having a Plaid thing. So several of my mini skirts are plaid. I also found a wonderful WONDERFUL mid calf lenght red plaid flannel skirt at Goodwill for $1.49. and I spent some of my yule money at DSW buying these:
(on sale for about $25) I adored them so much that I ordered the brown ones from Sears for $29.99... and they will arrive in a few days. That's all the shoes I'll buy new for a very long time though, but aren't they just to die for? They are so close to those shoes I was lusting over a few months back, but didn't cost me $149.00.
33. What kept you sane?
Really? My absolute sheer determination not to let the world destroy me this year.
34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
I um... generally don't fancy celebrities or public figures. Not in that way. Actually, most ofthem I'm lucky if I even know who they are. Well I mean I can recognise the names, but I don't know or care what they look like, who or what they are sleeping with or what TV show they are on. I just don't care about them. They have nothing to do with me and I think people spend way too much of their time looking at those people as if they could possibly be any sort of realistic role model. Our politicians, well, I know more about them, but I don't fancy any of them particularly. If Guiliani can somehow manage to get the Republican nomination, I will probably support him. If anyone else gets it, it won't matter... The Hildebeast has it clinched, and I don't fancy her brand of (pretend it's not) fascism.
35. What political issue stirred you the most?
The Fair Tax. Get it on the congressional floor people. If a 2008 candidate for president wants my vote, he or she had better be behind the fair tax.
36. Who did you miss?
People who don't live here.
37. Who was the best new person you met?
Totally it as evil_little_dog.
38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007.
No there is no lesson. Well there is, but given how badly I have been harmed and screwed this year, I think it's better to just call it no lesson rather than say "never trust your friends ever again." That's not any kind of lesson to learn.
39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
I hate these hahaha... like I can come up with a song lyric to match ANYTHING... How about:
Might as well be walking on the sun.
And by that I mean it seems like everything I have tried to do this year has been 100% pointless. And I know reading back over it that it all sounds very pathetic and bitter... and yes... I am very bitter about how I was treated by some people this year, and not one of them has said two simple words "I'm Sorry". It would have gone a long damn way to make me feel better. But the fact is they're not, and I can move on from them. My friendship is worth more than that, so... but it's not just that part, but every job I have applied for... it's gotten to the point where filling out an application is just SOOO weighty that I don't even want to do it any more. and if I don't I know I'll just continue to spin my wheels and not go anywhere... So... I have to have a positive outlook for next year and just leave this year behind. I need to stop trying to be what other people think I should be and just do want I want, and that's pretty much where I've been for the last 3 months or so. So though this sounds very pathetic and bitter, it's just because I ahven't had enough time to put distance between those things that made me bitter so that I don't sound so pathetic and depressed. But things are getting better. So don't worry.. I just need more time to get it together.
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I understand where you are coming from on that whole drunk and addicted thing too. I just don't want to be around that crap any more. I refuse to surround myself with people who are bent on their own destruction. I've been around it enough that it's starting to effect my ability not to destroy myself.... and yes... it would be nice to be able to hang out with people who don't even feel the need to crack a bottle or imbibe in anything at all just to hang out together. That whole party thing? I didn't even know about it until I called Lexi today to see what she was up to. Not that I'd have attended, but it would have been nice to know that my absence has been missed enough to merit a "hey if you feel up to hanging out, we're having the thing here." Just sort of clinches it for me. Note, I'm not hurt by it... it just sort of confirms some things for me. It's cool.. probably really what is best anyway.
Note.. on that whole relationship thing? Just take your time.. that's my advice. You are unsure of yourself, and so just take your time and don't rush. Don't push, and don't let him or her push either. Hard to do sometimes, but you don't want to rush ahead this time.
I do wish you a happy New Year. I think that memory foam pillow was probably a great investment. I love my D pillow.. not memory foam but the concept is similar. I'll probably go for an MF next pillow purchase. Either that or one of those Aqua pillows.. but *choke* $45..... But the chiro recommends...
Here's the link to the Austens. http://content.sears.com/shc/s/p_10153_12605_05471009000P?vName=Shoes&sbf=Brand&sbv=MUDD
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