Warning

Pre Note: Anyone who does not know the definition of the term "energy signature" rest assured that I am not addressing you, though you are welcome to read my warning in case you ever decide to use non-material means to fuck with me. Otherwise, don't ask me if I'm talking about you. If you don't know what I'm talking about, then I'm not. Now on with what I have to say to one person in particular.

Dear You.

Please be aware (reminded, because you know this) that you have been fucking with a GUARDIAN. I have been more than patient, however, I will no longer stand for having non-material means used against me, my home, my finances, my transportation, my other friends or my work. I am aware that you are attempting to keep me too distracted with my own problems to be aware of the sorts of manipulations you are attempting to accomplish with me and with others of our mutual acquaintance. My patience is at an end. Fucking with your guardian puts your entire circle at risk, especially when your games are intended to keep the guardian too distracted to see danger coming and PROTECT you from it (despite this stupidity). Do you think I am unaware where this comes from? Clue: I'm a fucking GUARDIAN and your energy signature has been all over this for months and months. You can't disguise an energy signature I have known for 50,000 years, ok? So just stop before I bind you tighter than a girls waist in a Victorian corset. I have been MORE than patient with you, I have cut you more slack than I have ever cut anyone else ever before, because I truly believe that you are mentally ill. However, there is a point where I have to do my job and protect the rest of the circle.  This is your final warning.  I have given enough of them in the past that this should come as no surprise.

Further, re: my personal life.  I will no longer tolerate my decisions about my personal life being blocked. I will sell my home if I want to. I will move wherever I want whenever I want. I will DO what I want, SEE who I want, and befriend ANYONE that *I* want. I will not have you block decisions I made regarding my ability to meet my personal needs, until it is convenient to you.  My activities are not your concern. 3 times a charm, so you must certainly be aware how seldom I am interested in socializing with you overall, and how little I choose to interact with you at social occasions where we are both attending.  That's how it will be.  I will only allow so much. 

There is a saying that comes in response to a person saying "I refuse to be manipulated" and it is "Then you refuse to live".  I believe that statement is true, however, there is a line that must be drawn.  I'm drawing it.  Back the fuck off or face serious consequences both legal and metaphysical.  Take this VERY seriously.  Do not fuck with the guardian and then claim you love love love everyone in the group so much.  If you were actually succeeding in distracting me, what you are doing could seriously put everyone else in danger.  Consider the 'training' level of the other guardians in this group, and tell me you really want me to turn my back on you.  Cease and desist.  Now.

In other news:

Yes I had a nice trip.  Thanks for asking.  You know, I couldn't afford to really do anything... I just drove out and visited with my friends out in KC, and then on the way back stopped to visit friends in the City of E'ville for a couple of days too.  It was nice to get away.  Now I have to start taking serious steps to get things back in order here.  You may know that last year I put my house on the market. Well the agent I hired not only failed to sell it, she didn't show it herself a single time. I'm pretty sure all she did was list it on the MLS and Internet and just sit and wait for it to sell itself.  Well, anyway, I've decided that selling the house is really what I have got to do.  Since the accident put me out of work for so long, and then I went to about half what I was making, and all the stupid things that have happened to me since then job wise too,  it's been nothing but a struggle...

I had one roommate that I had to evict in December because he decided that he could quit one job after another, and then when he lost the last one that he could just skip paying the rent in order to have enough left out of his unemployment check (i.e. rather than get even a minimum wage job) to buy smokes and other unnecessary things.  I struggled through winter working two jobs and also doing home cleaning until I got my current roommate.  But he is moving out at the end of the week, and going to Columbus.  It's a good opportunity for him, so I don't begrudge him that, and he had said he was probably only going to be here until September.  I'm sick of having to have someone else in my house just to make ends meet.  My most recent one has been the best kind of roommate in that he is almost never home, since he's usually in Columbus or at his girlfriend's house.  But I can't make him stay hahaha.

So after a lot of thought, I decided again to sell the house.  I never intended to keep this house more than 3 or 4 years, I just wanted something simple to take care of for my first home until I was used to the idea that it was my house, but also my responsibility.  The reality has been that while I thought I was buying a newer home (built in 1971) with the expectation of having a home with modern construction techniques used, what I got was a little box with plaster and lath walls instead of modern drywall.  A basement full of spiders that I just can't stand, and I don't have a canister vacuum... I'm going to try to get one because the upright while it has a long stick of spider slaying it is very cumbersome to carry around.. and I need to go down there with that sucker and suck up ALL the spider webs and scary looking stuff down there. 

I'm going to start Ebaying things I don't want that are valuable (such as my Franklin Mint Monopoly that has been in a closet since Lexi was big enough to start messing with it and I have not been able to enjoy it at all.. nor had a place to really put it anyway and I can sell probably for at least $100 even with some of the bills missing [Little Lexi fingers you know.] My Mountain bike [Have a perfectly good Road bike and that's what I ride, so... there's about $200 there] and then little crap I'll probably garage sale, then cheap cycle, then free cycle, then throw away. I have too much stuff again.  I got rid of SO much crap when I moved to Missouri.. and the last 6 years have packratted scads of it away.  I'm going to put a moratorium on gifts from my friends if they are just crap that sits around.  I like books, I like role-playing games for my Playstation, I like Manga and I like movie and Animé DVD's, and I like nice clothes hahaha.. I will actually use them, so my new rule is no more knickknacks.. I get so much knickknack stuff as gifts... and I hate to sell it or give it away because it's a gift you know, but geeze!  TOO MUCH STUFF.

Anyway, so today with the saleability of the house in mind, I went up to St Francis to see if I could find a sheet to so some work on my bed.  (you know my special roll up bed.)  I found a sheet that will work GREAT.  I also happened to find a pair of classy looking tie up curtains in a semi sheer sort of mauve colored fabric... they were only $6 so I picked them up too.  They look great with the matchstick blinds on the windows... just excellent.  I also found ... I guess it's probably alpaca wool... but it's kind of like an Indian blanket weave and it's mostly white with violety mauve designs.. guess what.. it matches the curtains perfectly... and it fits perfectly as a cover for my little blue couch. YAY to that.. so I've been rearranging my living room today to try to sort of get it looking more like it should. I'll have to roll up the green rug in there, because it doesn't match any more, but that can go in the guest room, and the sisal rug can go in there, since that will match the matchstick.  I'll take some pictures when it's done.

There now. just a little status update.  Oh, I applied at Teleperformance.  I can pick up the phone, greet people, listen to them complain and do my best to make them feel better for 10-12 an hour, and unlike apparently a lot of people, I won't quibble about their need for people to have a pretty open availability.  Who cares if they need me to be available 24-7?  It's not like they're going to ask me to work that!  That's my new plan.  Anyone want to try to countermand my choices?