ishte | Resolutions

Yah.. I don't make them. I've said so. Generally speaking they are just a way to set yourself up for failure or disappointment. But I've got a couple now that I've thought about this a bit.

I will no longer hang out with people who are bent on destroying themselves and dragging others down with them. Sorry guys, but I won't do it. I won't be a part of it. So basically if you are still living in a world of the negative, abusing various chemicals, destroying your lungs, your health, your appearance, your mental well being, do not expect to see much of me. I find it has much more to do with that than obnoxious behavior. The fact that you don't care about yourselves enough to care for yourselves is why your behavior towards others has become so obnoxious really. It doesn't mean I don't care about you. I just can't be around you.
Living on $12,000 a year and having $13,000 in the most basic of household expenses every year is not flying with me. I'm sick of trying to figure out where the other $1000 is coming from. I'm sick of having to rent out a room. I will get a better job. Period.
I will sell this house. Nuff said.

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Yes I am down to like two a day now, I still have not broken and actually baught a pack which is, good but it is very hard. I don't smoke in the house, and it does really cukk to be standing outside in the cold. I do like to smoke in the car, but haven't...Man, that's so hard. Today I am going to buy some mint lfie savers ( can't chew gum, hurts my teeth). I can already see all the points you have made and I am glad to hear I am not nuts. Coo I do in fact talk to myself!

I can say the battle is hardley over and that the challenge is work for me. I work at the hospital as a tech and all w do is smoke... ( well not literally) But when things get real strssed on the unit, which they always do; we can go outside and relieve the damn stress. That is very hard. Thankfully yesterday the unit was extreamly busy and I didn't have time to think about nicotine, but still found myself getting antsy and annoyed. I am so annoyed now, and I have no LOGICAL reason to be except, I can't smoke. I do really apppreciate all the advice and I am sure I will be emailing you for more or just to rant...heh heh...

I am keeping myself busy and I decided that I want to start walking or jogging in the mornings. I have to start getting up really early for clincals...I mean like 5am, which is early for me...I don't get up 'till aleast 7:30/8. I have been also writting like no tomarrow which keeps me busy...just random things...but still keeping busy.
Thanks so much!

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Thanks so much!!!