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So, if you don't know this about me... I don't really spend a lot of time on my computer in Summer anymore. Generally speaking, I have other things that I want to do than sit on my ass in front of a computer. What this ends up meaning is that I don't write much in Summer either.

My activities have been different this year, because I haven't been feeling exactly stellar most of the year due to (probably stress induced) GERD. I'm doing better now. I had an upper endoscopy in which the doctor stretched a stricture. After the procedure I was really sick for two weeks and missed three weeks of work because it took me another week to get my strength back. GI doc thinks that I probably had a GI tract infection, backed up by the fact that the morning of the procedure I had some low belly pain which I mentioned to them, but I though it was just a little IBS due to being pretty nervous about my procedure. She said if that was the case, probably being inflated for the procedure might have just aggravated an already unpleasant bug. Also, my meds had recently been changed and turned out to be less effective so I was feeling worse instead of better. Went back to the original med, got the infection resolved and now things are going better and I feel more like myself except I still have to take a damned pill every morning, which I don't like. >_<

The good news is that as unwell as I have felt for the last 9 or 10 months, tests have verified that there is nothing seriously wrong. Just uncomfortable, and nerve wracking (and the nerve wracking part has probably contributed to how bad I've felt, and having those fears laid to rest is probably also going a long way towards me feeling more like myself, since this was probably stress induced in the first place.

Now Summer is almost over and I haven't accomplished much that I wanted to, but at least I'm feeling like myself the majority of my days. YAY! I didn't get the house painted. Can't really afford it right now. Next year for sure. My brother's estate will settle from probate pretty soon, and I'll have a little inheritance most likely so next year I'll probably just some of it to hire professionals instead of us doing it ourselves. Wanted to fix the gutters as well, which I could normally do myself, but haven't felt well enough to invest myself in a project like that. I wanted to start building my tiny house on the trailer I inherited from my brother. I totally planned to do that this summer, but I really didn't start feeling like myself again until maybe 3 weeks ago, so I'll make plans to start that as soon as the weather is nice enough next spring rather than start now, and have it sit half finished through Winter. Nope. Seems stupid to do that.

This weekend I'm going to go see Duran Duran. I'm excited about that, and also about getting to go with my friend who lives too far away to visit often, so I haven't seen him in quite a few months now. YAY! Music Festival type thing.

I managed to get the Irish Session going again at our local Irish Pub which is also awesome, but it's slow going because it's been two years, and now it's on a different day, and some of the original gang aren't as available as they would have been if I'd managed to get it on the same day we always played. But it's happening. Slowly but surely we're getting a group of regulars to come and play with us, and relearning the songs and tunes based on who knows what.

Now I think I'll try to spend a little time writing, since I'm up here in the Creation Room, windows open, and pleasant weather, cicadas singing outside. I'll try to speak more regularly now. We'll see. I do go long stretches. lol

I have had a busy couple of weeks... Stupid work schedule.  But here is something I needed to share because of how often I see these kinds of things.  Due to reading MegaTokyo I can read |_337 in several dialects quite well, but I agree with this whole thing, especially in my intense dislike of things like letters and numbers used in place of words.  (though I may occasionally say things like OIC... does that make me a hypocrite? I just hate things like "I am here 4u" and especially "I this Ur's?"

Well, here is what happens when you go out on a Tuesday night and you know you don't have to get up early on Wednesday morning. Well, early for me anyway. Because of the alleged weather (rolls eyes at the '6-8 inches of snow') and the distances my coworkers must travel, nobody else will be in, so I brought my work home with me. So since I am counting carbs right now, I was drinking Irish coffee Jameson and Tully's instead of my usual Samuel Smith's Oatmeal Stout. Thus, I am tipsy and awake at the same time.

Being Irish of course I am still clear headed, though I can feel the effects of my pleasant indulgence. Thus, I am watching Shogun, which I have seen enough times now that I can understand what is going on without even paying much attention to it. Now I'm going to see how well I play Majongg Dimensions. hahaha. Who knows when I will go to bed. Maybe I'll watch the rest of is. Blackthorne is just now with Kiku for the first time. Or maybe I'll just watch this disk and write some music. Music is loud in my soul right now. We'll see.

The curtains are drawn
Now the fire warms the room.
Meanwhile outside
Wind from the north-east chills the air,
It will soon be snowing out there.

And some there are
Cold, they prepare for a sleepless night.
Maybe this will be their last fight.

But we're safe in each other's embrace,
All fears go out as I look on your face -

Better think awhile
Or I may never think again.
If this were the last day of your life, my friend,
Tell me, what do you think you would do then?

Stand up to the blow that fate has struck upon you,
Make the most of all you still have coming to you,
Lay down on the ground and let the tears run from you,
Crying to the grass and trees and heaven finally on your knees

Let me live again, let life come find me wanting.
Spring must strike again against the shield of winter.
Let me feel once more the arms of love surround me,
Telling me the danger's past, I need not feel the icy blast again.

Laughter, music and perfume linger here
And there, and there,
Wine flows from flask to glass and mouth,
As it soothes, confusing our doubts.

And soon we feel,
Why do a single thing to-day,
There's tomorrow sure as I'm here.

So the days they turn into years
And still no tomorrow appears.

Better think awhile
Or I may never think again.
If this were the last day of your life, my friend,
Tell me, what do you think you would do then?

Stand up to the blow that fate has struck upon you,
Make the most of all you still have coming to you,
Lay down on the ground and let the tears run from you,
Crying to the grass and trees and heaven finally on your knees

Let me live again, let life come find me wanting.
Spring must strike again against the shield of winter.
Let me feel once more the arms of love surround me,
Telling me the danger's past, I need not feel the icy blast again.

~Tony Banks

I know you guys get to hear about my music from time to time, but you haven't got to hear the music itself recently. Especially not stuff on my big flute. So recently, Michael and I were practicing and he started playing a nice riff that was in the right key for me to follow. I really liked what it was sounding like, so I had him record it on his camera. Bear in mind that this is not polished. We're essentially writing this as we play, and just recording it to remember.



ETA: If you watch this full screen, you can see when Michael starts sort of playing around and changing things up. Whenever he goes someplace I didn't expect, my eyes fly open and lock onto his fingers to see what chords he's using... There's one time where I'm expecting him to go from one group to another for about three rounds... that I eventually take my mouth off the flute, give him a look and then he changes the progression back to the beginning like I've been waiting for him to do. hahaha. (and yes, there's applause at the end because people actually come to our practice sessions just to see us.)

How anyone can see and hear these choirs and really believe that there are no souls, that there is no force or connexion between us, no higher power of any sort, I cannot fathom.  It moves me to tears.

Seriously. And lots and lots of it.

Some time back someone on my Flist shared some music by Vienna Teng with me. I don't remember who it was in particular. Sorry. But I just want to say "Thank You". I have been enjoying it ever since. I'm reminded because I have a Last.fm radio station which plays mostly stuff ranging from Arcadia and David Arkenstone, to Himekami, to Ailsean and Supergreen X, Mostly essoteric stuff not on the pop charts. Not things you get to hear on an over the air radio station. Vienna Teng is one of those, and she's included in my list of things to play. At the moment something of hers is playing. Very nice. Thanks again for sharing. I really like it.